Good Morning, I do not want to ponder on past grief…(denial/distracting) I am prone to melancholy and am currently in a positive place …don’t want to go down that path. However, saying this causes the realization that I am not trusting God (blaming myself) to hold me where He has brought me and finish the work He has begun. If this respite is so fragile…it may well be my own making (intellectualizing/avoiding). So I will move forward into assignment…..